Here we go again

Soo I have not got to write, because once more I have been dealing with another medical issue. It seems as though a high level of estrogen can cause something called estrogen dominance let me define this for you: causes toxic fat gain, water retention, bloating, and a host of other health and wellness issues. As women age, there is a natural decline in testosterone and progesterone levels, leaving a relative excess of estrogen. what the fuck is wrong with these doctors, I just don’t get it ! Is it a money thing because honestly, Iam so tired of advocating for myself and then not getting the proper help even though it seems like Iam. I have had more shit happen to me in a year but because of doctors giving me wrong diagnosis, for fuck sake my knee still fucking hurts. Makes me think do I get a second opinion and cross my fingers that I don’t need another surgery, how about I desperately need a gastro but so scared that I’ll have to have half my intestine taken out lol. There’s just no knowing what’s next so I think I’ll save going to the doctor for a bit so I can enjoy my summer. I have so distraught over this estrogen dominance because I put on ten pounds and am so bloated I can’t see my muscles lol after two weeks of straight paleo and exercise I finally dropped four pounds ugh so mother fucking upsetting. I cry because this isn’t my body, for people who struggle I wish I can help them because losing weight is not easy.

For anyone who struggles with health issues it can get better you just have to work hard and don’t back down, this is a life long battle advocate for yourself. If something feels wrong it maybe, try to get to know your body so that you can feel when your not well. And if anyone needs or feels alone, you can reach out and Iam more then willing to talk. Life is shitty sometimes and you can feel alone, feeling alone is what makes it hard to go forward to push through things. In all actuality loneliness can make you stronger, not friends because you, are your only friend (you are your only best friend). I heard something recently that was a very true statement it’s not how many friends on Instagram or Facebook that friend you it’s how many true friends you have in real life. Some times the number maybe higher virtually, but realistically there not. So I am happy to say I do not have many friends and my best friend is probably my husband hum maybe my daughter as-well, but I do have one or two genuine friends and I think I’ll keep it that!!