IN YOUR OWN SKIN

Something hit me when I just went away to Barbados, girls are far to competitive!! As I sat in my beach chair relaxing by the pool, I did some people watching. I have to say I was surprised at the things I had the pleasure of watching happen right in front of me, things others usually don’t notice or maybe they do. You see I don’t normally pay attention to other people because Iam in my own world not giving a fuck about everyone around me , Why some may ask because I don’t have to. As I look around I see people sitting at the pool bar in the water talking shit about people around the them. But not to close to them because god forbid someone hear the shit talking and go over and punch them in their fucking face. Now let me break this shit down for you , these bitches are wearing two piece bikinis looking 9 months pregnant so why the fucking are they judgmental!!!! Over hearing them and watching this , I was about to go over and say put down the pina colada fat ass and look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself why am I talking about a thinner person in a skimpy bikini… Oh oh pick me I have an answer because your jealous and rude . Hey it’s one thing if your a big girl who is confident, loves yourself and are happy in your own skin. But it is another if your self conscious and talking shit, funny thing is as there talking trash they keep adjusting their bathing suit lol. But let’s not get it fucked up the skinny stuck up bitches were just as bad, their in their little thongs, with the big sunglasses looking around trying to get attention, like they were looking for a customer at a strip club “no bitch”. First off these girls usually have the worst self image and are always looking for another girl that they feel they can one up with their better body oh and they usually always have uglier friends lol. And they feel the need to look down on anyone who is not thin or in shape. But they don’t realize that their hiding their negative self image with fake titts, pounds of makeup and starvation diet . At the end of the day they are fucking miserable not being able to get wet because they’ll melt lol and make sure there extensions don’t touch any water, this isn’t a way to live. One girl walked past me with this I can take your man attitude, we’ll go right ahead because not everyone likes fake. And I had a fat ass bitch stare me down because her man looked at me lol. Look Iam not 100 percent natural , I have fake titts and eyelash extensions but that’s it. Believe it or not I don’t wear makeup because I feel prettier with out it, there was a time I felt I needed it but I learned that I had to love myself and be comfortable in my own skin. Even on instagram some people will post things to try to be better then the next , like ohh Iam so happy with my husband don’t we just look spectacular, ok well there usually the ones who have a fucked up marriage thats why they over compensate with their words lol if your curious about what My theory is just read their captions then look back at their Instagram and see if there always on a wonderful adventure with there gorgeous husband and I’m not saying everyone fakes it but you can definitely tell the ones who are. This constant need to make some one feel bad to make yourself feel better is bull shit. Come on some one will always have more money, a nicer car , nicer house, better relationship or better body, just accept it . There are so many young girls who commit suicide every year because of bullying it’s terrible . As a society we should be ashamed of ourselves for not smiling , or saying hello when you walk past someone. When I walk by someone I say hello and if they say nothing Back I yell it again to them lol because I want them to know that they are assholes … I smile and say hello to everyone I see because I had read something that said someone killed themselves and had left a note saying if one person would have said hello or smiled at them it may have saved his life because he felt so sad and lonely. As a kid I got teased a lot for the way I look and it mad me an angry person for a long time , girls did and said stuff to me that I would never say to anyone. One girl told me I would be prettier if I cut my hair like Madonna from The Who’s that girl album , my hair was down to the middle of my back and thick. But this girl was popular and I did it , then I got teased because they said I looked like a lesbian. After some years I went to therapy to feel better about myself and they taught me coping skills. So to this day after I’m dressed I look in the mirror and tell myself , I am confident, I am beautiful, Iam smart and I love myself because Iam me . Honestly that’s all anyone should be is their unique selves….